Love Yall.

Leaving Arizona was tough but needed. I honestly feel like i’ve found a part of myself that I didn’t know I needed. The real subject of todays journal is my cousins. I recently have lost two cousins within two months. & it’s not easy, nor do I feel like its going to get easier to handle.

The first cousin was an older cousin who actually helped raise me, he was very close to my mom. My mom was the first person he came out to with his sexuality when they were younger. Being raised with someone like that in your parents life and seeing the love the family showed him it was no way I could go out into the world and look at people different for being homosexual because I seen that no matter what that person is still a person. Love You Jay Jay.

The Second loss has happened recently to a cousin that was my age and very close to me. We talk every other day. He lived a tough life in and out of jail, being shot over 2o plus times and surviving. This time he didn’t survive. The sad part about all of this we had plans and he was one of the reasons I was excited to come home. Ironically he died in the same neighborhood he lived in and on the same day I left Arizona to come home. Love You Lil Jeff.